Older Guys

I get it ladies.

Older guys attract you.

But like...why?

Other than that they are older, what exactly attracts you?

Oh they have a good job?

Oh they're in college!

Oh they're desperate enough to date someone 4+ years younger than them (college guys) :P

Just...I have a buddy in Colorado and she always dates older guys ever since we were in high school, like I'm talking 21 year olds when she was 17...it's like...uhh.

Girls say it's cause guys that are older are more mature.

Um...maybe it's just their personality? Ever think of that?

Yes, most guys that are older are more mature and more gentleman-ly, but that doesn't mean all us guys the same age are immature...

I admit I'm immature but I know many guys older than me that are super immature.

Look at all the guys that live for themselves: they go clubbing, drive fast cars, get bitches, etc. But that's not maturity to me.

Maturity is looking for something to settle with. These guys sound like they are just going wild and free and not looking.

This also leads to why I'm so impressed with younger people (younger than me even) that aren't wild and free, they know what they want and they're working for it.

To talk about the former, these guys have good jobs, sure. They're students, sure. But they only do it for $ to go clubbing, drive fast cars, and get bitches. :P

I'm exaggerating (as I always do).

Just...tired of girls around my age always looking for older guys. It's just plain creepy at times.

Hail! Hail! to the girls dating guys younger than them.

My mom is one of them :D

I want to SCREAM.

FIRST you say I ignore you and don't call you to hang out.

THEN when I try to hang out you say "oohhh finals I can't hang out"

LASTLY I see you eating with people that I'm cool with...and you don't even THINK to call me.

Thanks a FUCKING lot.

FUCK FINALS. FUCK SCHOOL.

To a certain AWESOME Korean girl

We will miss you so much!

When you told me where you're applying to for grad school I was like "aww, no NorCal colleges..."

It's okay! We shall meet again, and I KNOW you'll visit us.

Silver Trembling Hands! You are so epic for that, and I hope you stay super cool as you are now.

Innocence

Innocence.

What does it entail?

What's been bothering me lately is sexual innocence.

I'm a virgin, I've never had sexual intercourse.

This does relate to my "people are too loose with sex" post.

But innocence.

How is sexual innocence lost so easily?

Why is American culture so filled with sexual sin?

So filled with sexual desire, lust, flesh...

Sigh...


I love my friend, but she told me how she "did stuff with that guy when they had a thing"

I love my other friend, but she told me how "her last bf just always wanted to &%#$"

Sigh...why are we so lax about it?


People don't realize it's for babies.

Sex = Child/Children


Yes, God made it feel good, but we take that too lightly.

Just...frustrated that people are so lax about it.

SO LAX.

STOP BEING LAX.

RAWR!

The Flaming Lips

was like that, except Eunice and I were in the 5th row(ish) and everyone was chanting along (aka more epic!)

YAY!

Ambiguous

Being in a fellowship isn't an ambiguous option.

Specifically, you're in a Christian fellowship.

Not a fun fellowship,
not a hangout fellowship,
not a sports fellowship,
not a club fellowship,

but a CHRISTian fellowship.


For example, say you've never played Hockey before in your life, never watched a Hockey game, and have no interest in Hockey WHY OH WHY would you join a Hockey Club!? YOU WOULDN'T.

Be in it for it, itself.
God isn't ambiguous.
He isn't saying "oh whatevers, you can chill with us even if you don't care about who I am, what I've done for your life, my sacrifice and all, just come chill with us, whatever."

GOD IS NOT WHATEVER.

WAKE UP, PEOPLE!

I Realized

I take a lot of people's quips too seriously...I get butthurt by them, even.

I'm such a pansy.

Also:

Disrespectful - doesn't listen when I say something

Always saying "I told you so"

And if I talk to her she'll just say "stop being a bitch. shut up." (acting childish)

SHE SHOULD KNOW I'M SENSITIVE. FUCKING SHIT!

Chances

I always give people the benefit of the doubt...and if I don't it's for good reason.

But when someone abuses this and doesn't even realize it, it can get to me!

I still don't think she realizes how hard it is to not be rude to her back. She doesn't even REALIZE how inconsiderate she can be...and it pisses me off.

I wish she had more empathy, but this isn't how she is, she doesn't seem like she's built to care about other people as much as she cares about herself.

To not even listen to what people say, to always have the "I told you so" mentality, to always prove people wrong and not even let them have a conversation...it's just...mind-blowing. It also pisses me off to no end.

There was a point where I had no more chances. But I gave her another one.

Now I think it might be time to take that one back.

Pray for me.

Koinonia

So today I went to Koinonia's Bible Study.

IT was MASSIVE. Like hundreds. Jeez louise.

Such a huge fellowship.

I got to see Kelly too! Haven't seen her in awhile.

The pastor's message was Matthew 20:1-16

Woot woot such a great speaker, I saw him at Grace Point last Sunday toooooo!

Today he basically spoke to me on the topic of levels.

People aren't better than others, there's no such thing as better, because in God's eyes we are all the same, his children. He loves us all the same.

I wish everyone knew this super amazing fact about Him...

Sigh...

OMFG STEVE AOKI TMRW

I AM SO EXCITED. 5PM LOWER SPROUL ZOMGZOMGZOMG.

Last Night / Confucius

Wow I was mad last night...it's incredible what "sleeping on it" can do for me.
It seriously does work for me.

It even makes me less angry about the situation in general.

I'm the type to get the anger out now, and not hold it in.

Bottling up anger is so bad...for me. I used to do it a lot, then explode on people randomly. It was bad.

I'd rather annoy people for a short period of time a lot, then to bother them constantly over a longer period of time.


Confucius was a beast, by the way.
Translated many texts, he was sort of like Van Gogh, no one liked his stuff until after he died :P (not exactly)

One thing my book says about Confucius is that he was quick to say he might be wrong, and would always be prepared if he made a mistake to admit that he did make a mistake.

That is humility.

Annoying a Friend

I felt like I annoyed all three of my close female friends I saw today.

In different ways of course.

But the most important was Zoe, cause she made a point.

All I do is complain about him to her, and she made a good point "just stop hanging out with him."

He hangs out with us...

I really don't like hanging out with him. Always trying to prove people wrong, judge people, be a Jew with money, etc etc etc.

If you're so damn smart go invent something, go be someone.

We on the other hand are still sorting out our lives, so please don't get in our ways with your snide, stupid comments.

Flirting

What is flirting?

flirt: playful behavior intended to arouse sexual interest

Sweet Jesus.

There is a limit to when you're being too nice to someone, this is flirting. When you're putting yourself out there just to be the center of attention is also flirting.

Sigh...I really can't stand people that are flirty that don't even realize it. AROUSE. SEXUAL. INTEREST.

That's serious stuff!

Not to be taken lightly, y'all.

I admit I can flirt but I need to not flirt...seriously need to not.

I respect women so much some call me a Feminist, so I feel sometimes flirting with them is not respecting them.

But there are times when women can't draw the line between being considerate and flirty when in a group setting or when hanging out with someone of the opposite sex.

RAWR.

Admiration

I really really really admire Max and Eugene's blogs.

I like them a lot.

They are quite eloquent. I am not a boss at eloquency. (That was not even a word, fail)

So...

Although I have a Xanga too (that I never update lawl) I shall be using this too. 'Cause I like how clean Blogger is.