To a certain AWESOME Korean girl

We will miss you so much!

When you told me where you're applying to for grad school I was like "aww, no NorCal colleges..."

It's okay! We shall meet again, and I KNOW you'll visit us.

Silver Trembling Hands! You are so epic for that, and I hope you stay super cool as you are now.

Innocence

Innocence.

What does it entail?

What's been bothering me lately is sexual innocence.

I'm a virgin, I've never had sexual intercourse.

This does relate to my "people are too loose with sex" post.

But innocence.

How is sexual innocence lost so easily?

Why is American culture so filled with sexual sin?

So filled with sexual desire, lust, flesh...

Sigh...


I love my friend, but she told me how she "did stuff with that guy when they had a thing"

I love my other friend, but she told me how "her last bf just always wanted to &%#$"

Sigh...why are we so lax about it?


People don't realize it's for babies.

Sex = Child/Children


Yes, God made it feel good, but we take that too lightly.

Just...frustrated that people are so lax about it.

SO LAX.

STOP BEING LAX.

RAWR!

The Flaming Lips

was like that, except Eunice and I were in the 5th row(ish) and everyone was chanting along (aka more epic!)

YAY!

Ambiguous

Being in a fellowship isn't an ambiguous option.

Specifically, you're in a Christian fellowship.

Not a fun fellowship,
not a hangout fellowship,
not a sports fellowship,
not a club fellowship,

but a CHRISTian fellowship.


For example, say you've never played Hockey before in your life, never watched a Hockey game, and have no interest in Hockey WHY OH WHY would you join a Hockey Club!? YOU WOULDN'T.

Be in it for it, itself.
God isn't ambiguous.
He isn't saying "oh whatevers, you can chill with us even if you don't care about who I am, what I've done for your life, my sacrifice and all, just come chill with us, whatever."

GOD IS NOT WHATEVER.

WAKE UP, PEOPLE!

I Realized

I take a lot of people's quips too seriously...I get butthurt by them, even.

I'm such a pansy.

Also:

Disrespectful - doesn't listen when I say something

Always saying "I told you so"

And if I talk to her she'll just say "stop being a bitch. shut up." (acting childish)

SHE SHOULD KNOW I'M SENSITIVE. FUCKING SHIT!

Chances

I always give people the benefit of the doubt...and if I don't it's for good reason.

But when someone abuses this and doesn't even realize it, it can get to me!

I still don't think she realizes how hard it is to not be rude to her back. She doesn't even REALIZE how inconsiderate she can be...and it pisses me off.

I wish she had more empathy, but this isn't how she is, she doesn't seem like she's built to care about other people as much as she cares about herself.

To not even listen to what people say, to always have the "I told you so" mentality, to always prove people wrong and not even let them have a conversation...it's just...mind-blowing. It also pisses me off to no end.

There was a point where I had no more chances. But I gave her another one.

Now I think it might be time to take that one back.

Pray for me.